Release to Renew – The Saged Tower
I don’t often share the details of my meditations. But today, inspired by a gorgeous collision with Universal alignment and some of my soul sisters … I will.
Everything is a tool. Meditation and connection with The Divine is fluid – enhanced and sometimes aided through the use of tools, such as tarot and oracle cards, plant medicines, and sound. Healing is a process. Expanding and awakening is a process. Read on for a glimpse into mine.
Sacred Ceremony
Setting space, lighting a candle for my Spirit… for my Highest Self.
Release to renew.
Leaving the Tower face down, I placed the sage that I’d had shielding the card for the last few weeks into my skillet.
No cauldrons here.
Connecting with my breath,
pulling sacred energy up from the earth, igniting my lower chakras – deep, ancient, earthy energy that brightens and fuels the root and sacral and solar plexus.
And pulling the divine down, washing through my crown and third eye and throat,
I joined the two lines in my heart – low meeting high, merging and aligning.
Agua de Florida. Blessed.
Anointing the third eye and crown as my shaman before me.
Anointing the heart, connecting all those places that allow me to see.
When I pulled the Tower, I had also pulled The Wheel of Fortune and Strength.
These cards had been sitting on display near the saged Tower. I felt the need to leave these three out in this way for weeks.
Tonight though, it was time to release – to derubble.
Connecting with my High Self…
I picked up the Strength card. And I heard…
“You can release the Tower because you are strong.”
Sitting with this truth, I let it sink in, infusing into my consciousness.
I picked up the Wheel of Fortune card. I heard…
“You must release the Tower because things are always changing, always evolving.”
“Your strength allows you to do this.”
And I let that truth float around in my Third Eye and settle into my High Heart.
Clarity.
Flipping over the Tower, I felt its heaviness.
My entire world, the one I used to know and cherish above all else, appeared in that card.
Anointing the sage with Agua de Florida, I set it aflame.
I watched it burn brilliantly and felt myself releasing…
acknowledging the dissolution of my marriage and the complete transformation that I propelled into.
I let the Tower fall completely.
Crumbling into nothing. Burning to ash
My marriage. The soul connection I share with him, my twin flame, my ex.
Inhaling honor for what it was…and exhaling all the grief and confusion, the exhaustion and disappointment.
Sitting with the truth of this, the beautiful and divine purpose of what was – I cut cords, rhythmic and absolute.
The flame extinguished.
Still work to be done.
Igniting the sage once more…
I saw truth and passion in the flames.
I saw myself. My SELF.
I breathed into the smoke, taking in the wisdom that comes from looking deep,
From tunneling to the core and finding golden magic, fed by the roots of the ancient
And nourished with every star in the sky.
A new card jumped out of the deck. Face down.
My way forward.
Earth Goddess. The Queen of Cups.
I was shown…
I AM the Flame-Wielder, a Magic Woman.
I am the Sage.
As the last of the embers turned to ash,
Bowing in gratitude
I declare, SAT NAAM.
The Tower has fallen. And I soar high above as the Eagle, rooted as the Grandmother.
